(Self-portrait, Saint-Remy, Aug.-Sept., 1889)
mad yet humble
tried to do it straight
neat, failed
peasants–his touchstones
lunatics, haystacks, whores
faces, chairs & shoes
(Theo helped, wrote back at least)
eating his paints, poisoned,
saw sunflowers as they really are
tried to get the yellows to go away
(they didn’t)
stayed up all night
to paint cafes and stars
walking by the river
lights & whorls overhead
then something happened:
it didn’t matter anymore
that circles never ended
like inmates in a ring
or that cypresses moved like waves
the sower walked blue fields at dusk
smoking, bandaged, completely sane
& Dr. Gachet looking tres triste
would say “you know
you really oughta get out more”
which Vincent did
the plein air experience…
& then green
lots of green truths
a colour no-one had dared before
that & the crows
then something happened: