Peggy’s

He could not
feel bad here
lying under
the good stars.

The lighthouse
was just visible
& tall waves
knew grey rock.

He recalled
other beaches,
summers & the taste
of strawberries.

The guitar of
wind kissed skin
& hair as nightbirds
made love to
quivering shoreline.

The tide had turned.
Mariners considered
new catches & dreamt
once more of death
by drowning.

The promise of
sky & sea were
never more obvious.

(previously published here October 15, 2012)

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About 150 people live on Runde Island, Norway, along with about 500,000 birds.

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The Irrelevance of Itinerary

There were no more maps
just bite-marks and dry lips
that bled on their own.
Hair that stuck to skin
and smells that lingered on
like good music.

There were no more frontiers,
the proper guides left far behind.
Previous roads meant nothing now
and the mirror of time
was broken once and for all.

There were no more names
in this territory and everything
had stopped making sense.
There was no telling if they
would ever arrive or even stop.

Much of their time was spent
lost in the country of desire.
Destinations changed daily.
A touch, a glance or single word
could shift forever the travel plans
of all these crazy tourist-lovers.

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previously published here September 5, 2012

1st place prize romantic poetry winner; Zygote magazine winter 1995

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Francis Bacon: Thought du Jour

“Who questions much, shall learn much, and retain much.”

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Always Nice

to wake up the next day and find no comet or significant meteorite has hit overnight. There are so many things we take for granted such as home safety, workplace stability, known personal service people (in our lives) stability, personal health and longevity, etc. Always it is important to appreciate and savour each day while we’re here. The great assumption of forever or non-change is just that–an assumption and illusion. Far more important to be more aware and conscious–to live life thoughtfully with sensitivity, depth, play, and pleasure. And to cultivate our own gardens by choice, as Voltaire suggested in Candide. To actualize and live our possibilities and who we essentially, truthfully are.

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Daybreak

There will come soft rains and the smell of the ground,
And swallows calling with their shimmering sound;
And Spring herself, when she woke at dawn,
Would scarcely know that we were gone.

(excerpted from Sara Teasdale’s “There Will Come Soft Rains”, 1920)

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Robin’s Song, 3:30 a.m.

In many ways a welcome mystery and wake-up call to simple beauty, pure music, Nature personified, the simple pleasure of being alive and freely expressing it, the 24 hour presence of Nature, and the many possibilities available for others at early dawn.

There are many spring and summer mornings I have heard his sound and shared in all the above. The robin’s song so meaningless, unenjoyed, and unappreciated by far too many.

The privilege of the experience of beauty and Nature. The sublime delights of music. The joy of expressing one’s feelings freely, spontaneously, and fearlessly. A veritable call to life and its daily renewal. A clarion call, too, to consciousness and sense of presence itself as well as one’s own transient, ephemeral aliveness and, it is hoped, sensitivity and sensibility.

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Listen to the robin sing: “I am feeling great today. It is a privilege and pleasure to wake up to another dawn and day. It’s beautiful outside. I don’t know about anyone else, but I am very much here and thankful (and even proud) to be here yet again. “

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Process, Context, and Choice

Our lives and any moments or situations you care to name are simply a combination and interaction of three things: process, context, and choice. Life and its many episodes consisting of seconds, minutes, hours, days, weeks, and months is nothing more than a process, a long series of never-ending moments that unfold in a person’s life. We talk of life process whether we are describing a man, a pelican, a tree, or the ocean. Process can be applied as a concept to many things: the history of a nation, a procedure such as a medical operation, or a stage in one’s life such as adolescence.

Context is simply the situation one finds oneself in whether one is a child in a day-care centre, a career woman encountering a “glass ceiling” in the work world, or a group of oppressed people within a repressive political regime. Context can be personal, social, political, religious, medical (as in the case of having an illness or condition), and so forth. Context is what we, as individuals, are presented with at any given moment, what we find ourselves in. Sometimes the context is familiar, as in waking up in the morning and making our breakfast. Sometimes it is unfamiliar or unstructured, as in when a concert-goer finds himself being pushed to the front of the stage by an enthusiastic crowd. All contexts frequently require response and choice, especially in the face of obstacles or crisis.

Confronted with the never-ending flow of our days and process, and the fact of similarly morphing contexts, we have but one way to respond—via choice. Some Existentialists suggested that the important thing in life was the fact of personal choice. Victor Frankl, the Austrian psychiatrist who wrote movingly of World War II concentration camp experiences, said much the same thing about those personal choices we will into being, especially in contexts of conflict and crisis.

To a large extent, our choices finally define us, whether they are ‘good’ or ‘bad.’ If you want to understand others, consider their choices and decisions. What do they choose to do? How have they chosen to live their lives? What other choices might they make or have made? And what, then, of our own choices? How and why do we choose as we do? What do those choices say about us, our values, and beliefs, and the unique individuals we all are? Understanding our choices can move us forward in our lives. As novelist George Eliot once said, “The strongest principle of growth lies in human choice.”

(previously published here September 2, 2012)

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Individual Process, Briefly

Life being largely about the impact of the world on an individual.

Beginning with the flow of images, sounds, language, feelings, thoughts–various information via lived experience.

Received, filtered, organized, processed by the individual’s senses, body, mind, feelings via imagination, intelligence, and empathy.

Thereby generating important meanings, understandings, epiphanies including pattern recognition, meaning-making, personal understandings, and expression/sharing of same.

What might also be called the potential development of a sensibility with resulting integrity, values, and style.

In short, what comprises a fully-realized, autonomous individual.

The more developed and multitudinous the sensibility, the more interesting the person, the broader and richer the quality of experience and capacity for empathy, connectedness, expressiveness and creativity.

What is important, then, to any individual is obtaining and knowing the information that satisfies curiosity, that is wanted, needed, necessary, missing, missed in order to maintain ‘life-flow’, to ‘move forward’, to develop, and to grow.

Life’s information cannot be understood or expressed without language, thought, and feeling, and sometimes whatever missing experience.

(previously published here August 24, 2012)

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‘Head Close to Earth’–part 3

I was really fortunate my folks moved to the outskirts of Winnipeg in the mid-’50s. Across the street from our rented, temporary home was an old church surrounded by fields of long grass. I used to go across to play in those Ernest Thompson-Setonish long grasses, very much like Brian in Who Has Seen the Wind. I was warned there might be garter snakes in them, imagined bigger, longer snake versions, but never saw one. (For the record, there are places in Manitoba where the slitheries can be found.)

The house that we moved into one street over the next year as I turned 6 was even more ‘back to nature’. There was a field and wood across the street, and a field behind us and on one side. Long hot Winnipeg summers were fabulous and filled with the magic Monarch butterflies and, like Joni Mitchell in “The Circle Game”, I even caught at least one in a jar.

My mother long had a green thumb–being raised on an isolated northern Manitoba farm–and so there was a full vegetable garden and many flowers in bloom through the summers. (She planted a lot of seeds from packages and the yard was quite colourful.)
I also had a mongrel with Corgi features named Scamp (after Walt Disney’s) as a companion. Because my parents worked, I would let him out at noon and after school, and we played together and I involved him in imaginary games outside.

Our front yard was lined with caraganas and lilacs to complete the olfactory affects in spring and summer. My father would flood me a rink on the driveway (we had no car) and I would imagine American Hockey League games with all the exotic faraway names–Springfield, Providence, etc., played by just me. One summer, as I dipped into James Fenimore Cooper novels retold by Classics Illustrated, my hockey stick became an imaginary rifle and I became, variously, Hawkeye or Daniel Boone, hero of my own imagined frontier adventures.

There was also a long wood which ribboned, uncut by man, to the shopping centre about 4-5 blocks away. I remember once walking with my Dad with our bikes through it and him cutting open a fresh tomato and salting it for us to eat on our expedition. It was a pure magic moment in the quietness of woods.

Yes, it was all pretty idyllic and it also helped, being car-less through grades 1-12, to walk everywhere in all kinds of weather. I still recall trips through the snow to call on friends, and one memorable Monday morning in grade 10, walking to school on a snow-covered street with my friends, imitating Dave Clark’s “Bits and Pieces” after hearing it for the first time the night before on The Ed Sullivan Show. That and long walks to my girlfriend’s house in late fall and winter. Nature was that close, ever-present backdrop to my growing up as a city boy.

Maybe one bike trip embodies and signifies this closeness more than any other. In grade 5, I convinced my mother to bike-ride with me across town and some 35-40 miles north via highway and gravel road to East Selkirk where my country cousins lived. I planned a route with a Winnipeg map through the busy North End, then north to (West) Selkirk, across the Red River bridge to a gravel road which wound its way through woods to the then-village of East Selkirk.

It was sheer madness. We left on a Friday after she got home from work, and ended up riding in darkness toward Selkirk, then in complete dark (no lights) the rest of the way. We didn’t even have lights on our bikes. Somehow we were determined enough to do this and arrived some 5-6 hours later. I still recall my father’s disbelief when we phoned him and told him we had made it.

The ride back was on Sunday afternoon and there was light all the way. We travelled on gravel beside the paved main highway with cars whizzing past us. My mother had her old bike which was tricky to pedal in contrast to my new 3-speed.

Later, in her late 60s after my father passed–without telling me–she pulled off an even greater feat riding 60+ miles x 2 by herself on the Trans-Canada to Portage la Prairie, on a single-speed bike. She started back as soon as she got there and made the trip in one day. She must have been quite the sight on that busy road!

My mother and father’s love of nature happened daily when they retired. They moved to an apartment close to Assiniboine Park, and walked there every day, usually visiting the zoo and conservatory. In the long run, that nature gene, theirs, has been successfully transmitted to me. I now need Nature around me each day, and it often anchors any trips outside Edmo.

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A Graham Greene Reconnection

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Unexpectedly came across a PBS DVD documentary on this once-popular/favorite U.K. author and viewed it on the weekend. A man constantly on the move who lived into his 80s and had a very full unconventional life after he left his wife and kids. Got entangled with another woman and the spy world, then turned to writing for his tales of escape, loyalty/betrayal, and Catholicism. (He was a bad Catholic, condemned by the League, but friends with Pope Paul of his day! Typical Greene.)

A somewhat nihilistic sort who flirted with Russian roulette when bored, had a long affair (which he wrote about in End of the Affair), and wrote over 50 good, entertaining books. I used to teach Brighton Rock in grade 11, read The Power and the Glory in u, and saw a number of memorable, influential movies based on his books (The Third Man, The Comedians, Travels with My Aunt, Monsignor Quixote, The Heart of the Matter, The Quiet American), bought a beautiful, colorful labor-of-love  Paul Hogarth book illustrating his various books and travels, and picked up a signed Greene along the way so he remains very much in me. There are still two versions of End of the Affair on DVD which I own and still have to see–soon perhaps.

I did not know he had been swindled out of all his fortune and, subsequently had to live out of the U.K. for tax reasons. He had a disdain for American interference in other countries, particularly their assassination approaches, which increased when his friend– the leader of Panama– was also killed by a planted bomb.

Neat guy–highly respected in the U.S.S.R., France, and many other countries. (Feared and spied on by the Americans, though.) Didn’t win the Nobel Prize and turned down many other awards. Very much his own person who (like me) sympathized always with the underdog.

My favorite colour (after blue) still–Greene.

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